Lillian is here and I am exhausted!!!

My little Lillian is here! She is my little bundle of joy, I miss sleep though. I know this is part of it, I just miss sleeping through the night :). Lillian was born on 11\26\11, she was 7lbs 7ounces and was 18.5 inches long. She is currently 20 1\4 inches long, 7lbs 15 ounces. 

Every time I look at her or pick her up she has grown. It's hard to believe that she is 3 weeks old already. Time has flown, I am afraid to blink for fear that I will miss something. I am sitting here staring at her now, she is sleeping and looks so peaceful. 


I did not know that I could love someone so much so instantly. I do not want anything bad to happen to her, I don't want to miss one single moment in her life. I want to be able to give her the best of everything. I do not ever want to see her hurt, or disapointed.... I know it will happen, I know that there are somethings that I cannot keep from happening, but sitting here looking at her now I know that I will do everything in my power to keep her happy!

I am going to be a Mom

As most people know I am going to be a mommy! I have a million different emotions going through my head at any given time. 

I am due on the first of December and can hardly wait to meet my little bundle of joy. I have everything set up, all I need is my little Lillian! 

I think I am most nervous about "messing up" with my daughter. I am afraid that I will do something and have a family member or a friend look at me and think "Oh my why was she allowed to have a child?" I cannot place what these items could possibly be, and I am sure these are totally irrational thoughts to have but it does bother me. I do not want to do anything to mess up. Being a mom is going to be hard enough without having to worry about what other people think, for those who know me know that I do worry about what other people think.  I am thankful to have a wonderful husband who lets me worry about these things but knows how to bring me back down to Earth.  

So here is to the beginning of my new life, I am nervous but I am going to do my absolute best and that is all I can do!